Treatment...

The only option for Buster is the metronomic chemotherapy. Since the oncologist I've been using doesn't use this protocol, I went to someone that does. This has been day 3 on the cytoxan. He has been on rimadly since the prognoses about a week ago. He appears to be sleeping better at night. So far, so good in regard to side effects. His appetite is about the same.

I felt better going to the 2ND oncologist. I now have no doubt in my mind that I have done all I can for him. His tumor was a chrondrosarcoma, I was told it is resistant to chemo and radiation at the time. I am still giving him his other supplements. I will list at another post. I have also ordered artemisinin that can be used along with the chemo pill and may enhance the effect. I've found some good info on dosage and which one's work best. This is holistic (Chinese)... we will see if this agrees with Buster too..

Cancer, I hate you...

• Just because...
  

I am known by many people
But I have no friends.
Ill bring you pain and suffering
Your happiness I'll end.
My cold embrace, my chilling breath,
My silent deadly kiss
I'll pick you up, then throw you down
Into my dark abyss
I'm silent, I'm invisible. I'm a killer you can't see.
I'll touch you when you least expect,
And I'll never set you free.
I don't hate, I don't discriminate.
I don't choose who plays my game.
Fat or black. Young or old.
To me you are all the same.
There is no reason for what I do,
There is no reason why
.I chose you just because...
Its time for you to die.

So, this is Xmas.

Well, I've been trying not," To Mourn the Living". Since Buster's prognosis I've been very sad so that is what I tell myself. I feel somewhat in a fog. I have a support group and they have been very helpful. I guess by now I am coming to terms that the end is near. I know; so much for holiday cheer. (I inherit this from my mom, thanks mom. ) It's hard, I take him too the park and no even suspects he is ill, just missing a leg. They are amazed how well he gets around.. he even managed to get away from me today.... he is eating, just gets tired a little more easily. I'm even tempted to get 2nd opinion from an ocologist or am I in denial?

Emotionally this is very tiring and draining. I worry about my own health, too. I've had so much stress in my life these past couple of years and cancer runs in my family too... I always have an auto immune disorder with my thryoid. I'm always trying to connect the dots.

Just needed to vent some feeling...

Cancer doesn't take a Holiday...

Found out Buster's cancer is back and it has spread to his lungs. I am really devastated. It wasn't supposed to be aggressive, a chondrosarcoma. His chest x-rays were clear in August. I am spending all the time I have with him. I've been sleeping on the couch since lately, he prefers sleeping in the living room. He has always slept with me before in the bedroom, He knew before any Dr knew. I am making memories by taking pictures and cam cording. I am praying a lot for strengh and to St Francis so I will know when the time comes to say, "Good Bye".
PRAYER FOR OUR ANIMAL FRIENDS
Heavenly Father, our human ties with our friends of other species is wonderful and special gift from You. We now ask You to grant our special animal companions your Fatherly care and healing power to take away any suffering they have. Give us, their human friends, new understanding of our responsibilities to these creatures of Yours. They have trust in us as we have in You; our souls and theirs are on this earth together to give one another friendship, affection, and caring. Take our heartfelt prayers and fill Your ill or suffering animals with healing Light and strength to overcome whatever weakness of body they have.
(Here mention the names of the animals needing prayer).
Your goodness is turned upon every living thing and Your grace flows to all Your creatures. From our souls to theirs goodness flows, touching each of us with the reflection of Your love. Grant to our special animal companions long and healthy lives. Give them good relationships with us, and if You see fit to take them from us, help us to understand that they are not gone from us, but only drawing closer to You. Grant our prayer through the intercession of good St. Francis of Assisi, who honored You through all Your reatures.
Give him the power to watch over our animal friends until they are safely with You in eternity, where we someday hope to join them in giving You honor forever.
Amen.

Happy Birthday Buster!!

To my handsome husky, Buster, Happy Birthday! I know this past year has been a rough one. It was just this past April, when you had to have the amputation surgery due to cancer. I pray we have one or two more birthday celebrations more! Back to the party and I will post some pictures later....

This Wednesday is your appointment with the vet for chest x-rays. I'll tell Santa, "That all I want is more time with my precious Buster." Love you, Buster.

Thurs 12/11 Goodbye Katie girl...

It started out as any other day, until I received the call from my sister. I can barely understand what she was saying, she was sobbing. However, I did hear that Katie died. Katie, a beautiful 11 year old white German Shepard which belonged to my mother. She has a brother , Kuma, who is 9 years old. The past couple of days my mom had been worried about Katie's arthritis acting up, since we had a cold spell. She had an appointment that same day with the vet, but she didn't want to move. Katie was a big girl, about 105 lbs or so. My mom called the vet and he advised another dose of the Rimydal once it kicked in, to get her in ASAP. That never happened, around 1:30 pm she took her last breath and went peacefully to the bridge.
I get there to help my Mom and my sister. My little nephew, Brandon, greets me at the door, "Aunt Kim, Katie is sleeping and won't wake up". All I could say to him was "Katie went to heaven". I hope at his age he understands.. so, as a family we covered her up and took to the vet. Dr Batts has taken care of her, her whole life and believed she passed due to heart failure and she didn't suffer. Her remains will be cremated.
It is always hard to lose a family member. However, we never want them to suffer. So rest in peace Katie girl. Thank you for being such a good girl and watching over my mother and keeping her company. We miss you, and so well put by Jerry's pawrents at tripawds, "Your broken body has found peace". See you at the bridge..

Tis the Season..

Yes, it's that time of season again. A time to reflect and be thankful for many things. Such as friends (furry & human) and everyday blessings. Not into a conventional, commercial Holiday this year, but looking to donate my time and give to charitable and noteworthy organizations to help those less fortunate. Something to consider... Also, a nature lover, I find much peace and tranquelity being in a natural setting. There are many environmental and animal organizations out there, so give the gift that keeps on giving and can make a difference this season. Happy Holidays!