Well, it's been awhile since I posted. The past couple of weeks have been very difficult. Buster is still here, fighting the good fight. The reason for not posting is due to my brother in laws tragic death on 12/31/08. I got the call around 2:30 am from my distraught sister. I had to ask her to repeat herself several times over. She was hysterical, "Tony hung himself". I asked her to repeat what she said, since I was in shock. Then, all I could do was ask God, "Why".
I went up to St Mary's Hospital to meet her. It's about a 45 minute drive. It was the longest, darkest drive ever....... I saw her outside. We went in, his mother and father were in the room with him. My 18 year old nephew was there, he was the one along with my sister who discovered him and attempted to give him CPR while the paramedics took him to the hospital to resuscitate him. Later we were told he was DOA.
We went into the room, were he was laid out. A breathing tube in his mouth, looking like he was asleep. My sister, through all this shock even shook him and opened up his eyes tell him to, "Wake Up".... It was so very sad. At the time I was very angry at him for doing this to my sister and the children. Later is when I realized how much he must of been suffering mentally and emotionally. You see, he never appeared to be someone who would resort to something like this. Death is so final...
It is now that I realize that depression is like a cancer of the mind. It needs to be addressed. Unlike cancer, we can cut it out and treat it. But how do you treat something like this with just pharmaceuticals??
1 comment:
Kim, I've always felt that in the darkest moments of life, it helps to get things out by writing about the experience.
I know it wasn't easy to write this, but I hope you've found a little comfort in doing so.
My heart goes out to you, your sister and her child, and your family. There are no words that can express my sympathy, except, I'm sorry.
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